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Thursday, 06 June 2013

  • This Ain't No Goodbye, Dammit!

    So, recently, I've run into a whirlwind of bad news and horrid remarks about the site in question. One is that the have reached only 1/3rd of their mark, and also pretty snarky press happening about this place. It's the equivalent of the apocalypse happening, and Westboro Baptist Church saying that the entire world deserves its own demise.

    All that aside, I am here to say that this isn't goodbye. In fact, even though the odds are pretty bad, I'm still keeping optimistic about various amount of things.

    One is that any of the friends I met here, I can still keep elsewhere. The other is the possibility of it merging with something, perhaps. I don't nkow. All I know is that as a person who has blogged here for over a decade, I don't know I'm not yet ready to say goodbye yet. So, I won't.

    I'll say I'm really grateful for the friends I have made and the ability to express a sense of intelligence, lawlessness and love with most people here. I've had great realtionships and never really expected to know the people I did. Rather than get rid of my page, which I am sure most of you already did, I'm going to do the equivalent of dying upon my feet. I'll keep it up, maybe keep blogging upon it, if I have anything to blog about, and watch the screen go blank after I type the URL one last time. But if anyone IS interested in following me anywhere (I do go on other sites than Xanga, too), I have an AFROPUNK account (http://www.afropunk.com/profile/CharcoalSketchesoftheInvisibleMan) and continuing my wordpress (http://www.blogger.com/profile/13212588626808499753). My DeviantArt name is 7R41N3D3RR0R157 and Soundcloud is http://soundcloud.com/csoim-blank-vids. This is in case anyone who still calls themselves a friend can follow me and more of my adventures in turning from a lifer into a real music maker.

    Now, has anyone seen the movie that I believe is called Finding a Friend for the End of the World? Those who are aware of the ending know where I am going. Introduce yourself to me and maybe I can see what is new. For everyone else, let us collectively cover our heads and hope that after this ends, we will still be left standing. Afterwards, we will reminisce about all of this and get back to posting more posts about sex, politics, social problems, love, our hatred for at least one of the subdivision sites of Xanga and, if you want, pour your feelings out. Hell, if you liike, you can keep doing so.

    I'll see what's up when I get on the internet next time.

Wednesday, 15 May 2013

  • Chewed Out for My Intelligence

    So, I found out one of my main prerequisites for being my friend: tolerate or understand my supposedly “pretentious” exercising of the English vocabulary.

    Recently, I was talking with a friend of mine who is going home soon. One of her first complaints is how weird I seem. I told her she hasn't seen weird in a person yet. The reason why I was as weird as I was is because it took a long associated time for me to embrace being what I was: a poindexter who never had straight As, a man who loves electronically, conversation and has as many conversational glitches as anyone. I am awkward, outspoken, and ambitious in my need to elevate myself mentally, spiritually, etc. Basically, I was looking to say fuck being normal. Normal people are fine at never being where I was and ridicule me for talking like some kind of professor 24/7.

    The same friend also expressed annoyance at that, too: being a little wordy every now and then. What I told her is that won't downplay how geeky I seem because it makes me not normal. Normal people are going to have to adjust. I, then, got a talking to that the same friends lost respectable thought I was being pretentious with my approach to being who I was. Her exact words were to “get my head out of my assignments, face out of a book and to step into the real world”. This is what I said:

    “If you seriously think I live in this Poindexter fantasy of being better for using words and embracing being where weirdo, perhaps it is you who need to get out of your world. I know I am not always smart. I am very forgetful, I never got straight As... I am a common man. A little eccentricity won't hurt that.”

    I said more, but the point is that I thought she was a little more accepting of someone trying to be themselves or better themselves. I thought the first time we met, that friend was captivated by me being a bit more open with my personality. No dice. She needs to know in this world, people are now on opposite fences with their intelligence. Where there is someone stupid speaking out, the intelligent screams bloody murder in their direction. There can be a middle ground, but they simply slip through the cracks. In the day and age where everyone knows who Lady Gaga is, being weird (depending on your idea of weird) isn't a very bad thing anymore. So, I don't know why it is hard for her.

    I do not know. All I know is I could use friends willing to smartening up, rather than force me to dumb down.

Tuesday, 23 April 2013

  • Too Busy Living Life to Blog?

    So, it looks like some of us old friends here at Xanga signed off for a minute, and ever since then, people were wondering exactly what relevance Xanga holds in their life. It turns out that Xanga can still have a place in our lives, but right now, we just tuned out, so we can keep our lives going. So, here's what I will do. Those who are just returning or still here, tell me about what's going on in your life. And the newbies, if you want to join, introduce yourself? I'll go first.

    I am Blue Skye. My first name is Chris to the government. I was not only a blogger, but a poet, a storywriter, and one of, if not the only, male sex blogger here on Xanga. I didn't specialize in writing just about condoms and boobs. I really wanted to talk about sex, love and relationships, and every little missing minutiae in between.

    Nowadays, I don't really see much to write anymore, but every now and then, I talk about it and everything else.

    What I've been doing these days is that I started writing songs again. Not just instrumentals, but actual songs. I'm a composer. I play keyboards, a little guitar, piano, ukelele, a little bass, I make beats from time to time, and I sing.  I specialize in singing some soul, folk music and maybe rock vocals. I just wrote two songs last week, rediscovered some old stuff, and I'm excited to perfect them and show them off at some point.

    Also, as much as I love the girls here on Xanga, I decided to take a little break from dating online and chase something local. Somehow, I wound up right into a local relationship that lasted a whole year with a great woman. The secret to it lasting so long is that I have a girl who is a very big romantic. She like flowers, candy, dinners, soft rock,...she is the girl who usually gets married, if she doesn't pressure you so hard into marrying.

    So, I finally got out of my mind and started living life just enough to talk about it.

    What's been new with you?

Thursday, 11 April 2013

  • I Am Nobody's Backstreet Boy

    "I'll never break your heart
    I'll never make you cry
    I'd rather die than live without you
    I'll give you all of me
    Honey, that's no lie
    " - "I'll Never Break Your Heart"

    Oh bullshit. If you really felt that way, then you wouldn't have sang "The Call".

    I remember me and my girlfriend were chilling and she wanted me to come join her and listen to the Backstreet Boys. Naturally, I rolled my eyes at the idea. Needless to say, she was pissed. However, I explained to her that when it comes to music, there is just something that feels incredibly insincere about a Backstreet Boy song.

    People, have you ever had those moments where you were young, you wanted to date the prettiest, sweetest, most magnetic girl in the room. You loved it when she smiled, and you would rather choke on a apple filled with clothing pins than to see a pretty thing like her shed a single tear. You promised yourself and her that as soon as you get her, you are never going to make her cry, you will never break her heart...it will be nothing but green lights and an elevator up to Cloud 9 from there. Then, she turns around and dates this asshole, loser, this guy who the good guy knows good and well isn't fit to wash her draws or even lick the bottom of her fuzzy Ugg boots? I guess this is where I make a confession that I'm sure isn't surprising to some of you: I believe I am that asshole.

    You see, I would never promise never to make you cry. I will never say that I won't break your heart. I would never say anything like that not because I don't care about you, but because after being in my share of relationships, I realized it is complete crap. I had to learn this in college when I was in that phase. I promised myself that if you go on a date with me, you will get anything you asked for. A baby, a husband, a beautiful life. I will be yours till the day I die. If you want my world, you got it. That was what ladies wanted to hear at some point, right? Then, reality kicks in on you. Because at some point in the relationship, you will have second thoughts, you will have fights, you will have those moments that will negate everything you said earlier. Hell, your partner may even turn around and betray you

    The reason I will never say this or co-sign with the Backstreet Boys is because I feel like I am being more honest and probably even more romantic if I don't say that. Don't talk about it; be about it. In fact monitor yourself to make sure that you don't do anything of that ilk. If it feels like you can't really keep it up, then have a little conversation, come to a resolution, and find what it is that you are looking for. This way, the expectations won't be as high and the disappointment and heartbreak won't be as hurtful. Right?

    You see, I love my girlfriend. She is a huge romantic. She is very open-hearted, and trusting. Though, at some point, I wanted her to come to terms with the fact that when I listen to music, oftentimes I take lyrics and the situations posed within the songs seriously. I'm neurotic that way. If you have the balls to sing the words you do, you better back it up with your actions and the next few songs you release. It doesn't even matter who sings it anymore. 

    But assholes like me laugh at people who promise the world eternally because after being that guy, I feel pity that he has to learn what I learned the hard way. There is never anything wrong with wanting to make a woman happy, of course. If you are in a relationship, you good and well better do that or your tucas is mucus. But it always feels like those who promise nothing but good will eventually bring a good amount of bad and disapointment. There have been relationships where I probably once said that she will have no problem with me, and later on, that seems to be what she had.

    Me? I don't promise anything. I do what I can to make my girl happy and keep her satisfied. At the same time, I try and keep it real with her. I love her, but if I ever said "I'll never break your heart, I'll never make you cry", head for the hills because there is a possibly I will do that and not even know it. I think that is one of the main reasons that despite the person I am, she still stays with me.

    Because I have less than zero interest to be anybody's Backstreet Boy.

Sunday, 17 March 2013

  • All Babies Go to Heaven

    So, it's Blue Skye again, this time introducing my new musical project named Charcoal Sketches of the Invisible Man.

    Charcoal Sketches is my bedroom project made for my endeavors in ambient,, shoegaze, electronic folk, electro-pop, anti-folk, anything I can throw my keyboard into. Currently, I'm going to put up a link of my most recent song named "All Babies Go to Heaven".

    The song was dedicated to Jonylah Watkins, who was shot five times trying to get his diaper changed by a father who supposedly was linked to some sort of gang activity. The track was supposed to be with me singing to m playing the pian oafte acting class. These days, I have really taken to playing the piano, despite how the tuning may sound. If it sounds old school or new, it still makes me happy. But somehow, the piano playing didn't work out so well with the lo-fi recording.

    So, I whipped out my roll-out piano because I had the idea of making piano music or something folky out of electronic battery-operated instruments. Maybe on the way, have my ambition of creating junky, psychedelic/poppy stuff. Anyway, this track turned from a re-introduction to an appropriate tune of what heaven must be like for a baby.

    Coming from a future EP named Baby Angels, which should be a three-song introduction to Charcoal Sketches.

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    Hey man, long time. This is Passenger. Ran across the old review you did on my first album "The Brick In A Glass House". It was fun reading a review from 5 years ago. Don't know if you know, but I put out an EP a few years back. Here's the link: http://passengerhasmoles.bandcamp.com/album/not-every-
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